April 17, 2001

It's love.  It's love, it's love, and the world can't get any better!  Oh I know.  I know I thought the world was pretty good when I first saw him.  I thought the world was pretty rocking that first night we were together.  And the world kept on surprising me when I saw him walking up the driveway that first time.  But now, now, now that I know I love him and he loves me back, man, the world is just…just…beautiful.  This is a beautiful world.  This is a beautiful world, this is a beautiful life, and I can't believe I'm so lucky that I'm in it, that my life is in this beautiful beautiful world.

I'm in love with a gorgeous gorgeous hunk o' man who loves me and I, like, can't help but laugh every five minutes.  This guy LOVES me!  This guy loves ME!  I'm such a dumbass.

I'm looking at everything like it's the greatest thing ever.  Like everything in L.A. has been glossed in this glow.  

Everything looks a little bit brighter, a little bit happier.  I mean, come on, it's L.A.  Realistically, there's nothing here but miles and miles of concrete and the stench of desperation from five million aspiring hopefuls around every corner.  But I'm in love, and I'm laughing like a dumbass every five minutes.  Just tonight, I saw the most beautiful sunset when I walked outside my house.  And I know that sunsets happen every day and I know that they can be spectacular, but I also know that most of the time I don't even bother to look up at the sky to see if it's spectacular one or not.  And today I did.  Because today I do stop to look for the beauty in this world.  Today I realize I don't have to look very hard, because it's everywhere I see.  This world is beautiful.  He is beautiful.  And I'm beautiful because he loves me.